Sorry that I haven't posted in so long.
As most of you know, my great-aunt helen passed away on the 1st... It's been a hectic week so far..
My dad brother and I packed up and left thursday night to go home. The funeral was saturday and it was just so surreal. Aunt Helen was someone you thought would just be around forever. She was practically another grandmother to us because she had no children of her own... She had wanted pink in her casket. Pink of any sorts... Well, the family was at a loss because of how the "set" came with her casket, and pink couldn't be included. Her nightgown was an aqua blue color (she wanted to be buried in her pajamas because she wanted to be comfortable in heaven...) plus, she was ALWAYS in her jama's. Either just waking up, or going to bed after you'd leave her house..
Anywho, the family decided on 3 pink roses to put in her hands to represent her 3 great-great nieces.. Once I saw that, it was all over from there. It hit me like a ton of bricks that Layla or Brooklyn won't ever know their great-great aunt helen. :'( I know I should have tried harder to get home for her to meet everyone, but life has it's way of just GETTING IN THE WAY. I hate that. That's why I had to go home. I needed to see my family.. Sad but true, we don't know how much time Grandpop has left anymore, and now that he is all alone, we feel it's going to take a stronger toll on him than anything. I hate being so far away from my family. I hate seeing them all just break apart from each other when we all used to be so close...
The 17th will be 4 years that my grammy's gone.. and that just seems as if it were yesterday. After my dad laid the log down on her grave, I sat and talked to her for a minute.. I just miss her so much it's ridiculous... ugh.
enough with the sadness.. enough with the death..
This week is my finals week and I've got 3 papers to write. We've got a shindig friday and a concert saturday so I'm hoping with all of this, I'll be able to get everything accomplished. I have an 83% in my ethics class and a 93% in my MATH class... kinda weird eyh? hahaha.. after this week is over though my next term doesn't start til the 5th. SO happy for that.. I'm taking an english class and an environmental class. Should be quite interesting...
Christmas is coming and what's new? We're broke. I've gotten all of Lay's presents done, and I still have a few more for lil B yet to get. My mom, johnnys mom and sister are finished. Now as for everyone else, we're clueless.. Plates are due the 21st which sucks, and trying to save for the house is even harder.
Once January comes both Johnny and I will have health insurance again thank GOD. He'll be getting his much needed shoulder surgery and everything so that will be a huge blessing.
Our room needs a major cleaning so I'm figuring 2mrw I will get that done and overwith. Then I'll start tackling my papers. aye aye yayyyhhh.. I need a clone. anyone interested???
